T-Ball Tournament

Zach's team, the Lugnuts (lol) played their first tournament game last night. It is a single elimination tournament and this game was quite an ordeal. Our games normally last for an hour and fifteen minutes (usually 4 innings) but since it was a tournament game and someone had to win last night, we played 8 innings which took us two hours! Each inning, both teams would score but just enough to keep us at a tie. Finally, we got ahead by one and won the game! It was very stressful :o). Now we have to play again on Monday night. I may need anxiety medication before this season is over, and might not have any finger nails left!!

Hurry Up and Wait....

Well, we went to the court house Friday only to find out that court had been cancelled for that day. So, no divorce for me. I called an left a message today to reschedule. I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason, just not sure what the reason for the delay could be. I am praying for God to show me. I appreciate the support and prayers from my friends through this process...please keep praying for us.

Parenting Class

Last night Dan and me had to attend a 4 hour parenting class. This is a requirement in the state of Tennessee and is desgined to give you the dos and don'ts of helping your kids cope with divorce. The class did offer a lot of good information and reitterated several things that I have been saying to Dan such as, "take the boys to their ball games and/or practice and stop complaining about it being during your visitation". And also that structure is good for kids and they need that in their lives. I don't think that it helped him at all, though, except to give him false ideas about what he can dictate for our boys and me. He even asked if the courts ever make the spouse that makes more money pay spousal support to the other one. Since I make more money than he claims to make (he gets paid cash most of the time), I assume that he would want me to pay him spousal support. Seriously, I don't even know what to say to some of the things that he comes up with. Tomorrow the hardest part (I hope) will be over with. We'll see how things go from here.

Proverbs 1:33

Proverbs 1:33 says that if we are obedient that we will dwell safely, be secure and without fear of evil. So why is it that we (I) are so apt to be disobedient? I suppose it can be dealt to our sin nature, the whole rebel thing that has been going on since Adam and Eve, and just plain old selfishness. Or, maybe some of it is the fear of being out of control. Giving ourselves over to a force that we cannot see and sometimes question the existence of. But no matter what my justification at the time, I know that disobedience will end up causing more harm than the discomfort obedience may cause in the moment. Just like with my kids.....Joseph doesn't really like to read but I make him read a little each day....not because I want to make him do things he doesn't want to do, but because it is good for him to put something into his brain besides TV and video games. God doesn't tell us to do things so He can exert His power over us, but because He knows the end result, the good plans that He has for us, and the way to get us there. I would like to say that I will be immediately obedient from here on out, but I know that will not happen. But, I do know that I will take one day at a time and pray for God to help me be willing to be immediately obedient, knowing that in the end, His way is right. At the end of the day there is not better place to be than in the arms of Jesus, safe, secure and without fear of evil.