Matthew 7:11 says, "If you then, being evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask Him!"
A few weeks ago we were driving down the road and Zach was talking to Joseph about having one of those wooden play/swing sets in the backyard. He was talking with such feeling about wanting one of those, and wishing that we could get one. When I heard the sencerity in his voice I wanted to run right out and get one. Of course, several things stopped me from doing so, but as a mother who longs to give her children the desires of their hearts, I hurt because I could not do that for him.
Not a moment later, the above scripture came into my mind. As much as I desired to give that to Zach, how much more does God desire to give me the things that I want. Does His heart ache the way that mine did when He, because of my disobedience or bad choices, cannot give me the things that I desire? I think, definitely, yes.
The last few months have been a very diffcult journey for me, but I know that through it all, God has never stopped wanting to give me the good gifts He has for me. He has already given so much. For that I am very thankful.
Monday, May 10, 2010
Beta Club Induction
I am SO proud of Joseph for being invited to join Beta Club. He is a very smart boy even though it is hard to get him to show it sometimes (lol). And, I was really impressed with the ceremony at his school. They opened the meeting with the Pledge of Allegiance and prayer. Both led by students. A girl (the in coming Beta Club President) got up and sang "Who Am I" by Casting Crowns. For some people, I know, that this is politically incorrect, BUT it is things such as this that make me proud of Sevier County. As a matter of fact, most events (Chamber of Commerce meetings, Lodging Association Meetings and my Leadership Meetings) incorporate prayer at some point. It's too bad that a lot of other places and organiations have gotten away from this habit. Oh, and have I mentioned that Sevier County schools allow a group of Christians, Club Truth, to come in and talk to our students every other Thursday during the school year. Not only is academic acheivement promoted, spiritual acheivement is encouraged as well. I am looking forward to this new adventure for Joseph and hopefully the man that it will help develop in him!
Sunday, March 21, 2010
If I Throw Up Maybe I'll Feel Better
I know, not a very inticing name for a post, but this is exactly how I feel at this moment in my life. I have been fighting with Dan for so long I thought that I was prepared to take these final steps and end this crazy dysfunction, but it has been more emotional, stressful, and difficult than I thought. 90 days seems like a short time...June 18th will be here before I know it. I know that I am making the right "next step". I have no doubt that I am moving forward in the right direction....but that doesn't make it easy. I spent 17 years with Dan. While most of those years were spent in conflict, we did have good times. We do have two wonderful boys and there are memories that I will always cherish. He does have good qualities...no one is completely bad. I will continue to pray for him and hope that one day he will allow God to bring some healing and restoration into his life. I pray for God to continue to help me to change the things I need to change, too.
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Dallas
I was SO tired yesterday when I got in from Dallas but had a couple of things to do at home. I got into the airport around 11:30 am and headed to our church to say good bye to Joseph before he left for his youth trip this weekend. After that I had to wash my car because it was REALLY dirty. Apparently some bird had perched its self on a tree branch above where I was parked the whole time I was gone. After that I ran home to try and make myself presentable before taking Zach to register for kindergarten. I laid down at 4 pm to watch Little House on the Prairie (LOL) and fell asleep. I woke up at 6:30. I went back to bed at 9pm and got up at 7am this morning I was REALLY tired. This is what caused the need for all of that sleep.....
Tuesday: up at 2 am because my flight from Knoxville was at 5:30 am. Got to the airport at about 4:15. Flew to Charlotte where I had a 2 hour layover. Flew from there to ORlando (don't ask, my boss booked my ticket ~ I asked him if he was paying me back for something that I had done wrong)....finally arrived in Dallas around 12:30/12:45...gained an hour because of time change. Met Logan at the airport, went to hotel, walked around trade show, met up with friends for dinner, back at hotel around 9:30, in bed by 10!
Wednesday: at breakfast 7:15, general session 8-12 (had a hard time staying awake...really wanted to win the iPod touch but someone else's number was called...bummer!)...lunch and then breakout sessions, some useful information, glad for firedrill in the middle of one...if was becoming boring. Dinner that night at Eddie Deen's!! Free food, free drinks, live band and armadillo racing....what more does a girl need??? Again, in bed by 10....my friends think I am goodie two shoes....told them no, just can't hang with the big dogs!!
Thursday: same as Wedensday but did get a tiny little workout in (and I do mean tiny) then headed to Hampton's "dance club"! Again, free food and free drinks but no line dancing or armadillos....had a DJ that played some good music but most was not my style...good fun, though....glad I got to see all my friends from GM class in Memphis and pretty much everyone I have ever worked for in the hotel business!
Friday: up at 5am at airport by 6:30...on my way home at 8!
Had a really good time....now have to get back to reality :o)
Tuesday: up at 2 am because my flight from Knoxville was at 5:30 am. Got to the airport at about 4:15. Flew to Charlotte where I had a 2 hour layover. Flew from there to ORlando (don't ask, my boss booked my ticket ~ I asked him if he was paying me back for something that I had done wrong)....finally arrived in Dallas around 12:30/12:45...gained an hour because of time change. Met Logan at the airport, went to hotel, walked around trade show, met up with friends for dinner, back at hotel around 9:30, in bed by 10!
Wednesday: at breakfast 7:15, general session 8-12 (had a hard time staying awake...really wanted to win the iPod touch but someone else's number was called...bummer!)...lunch and then breakout sessions, some useful information, glad for firedrill in the middle of one...if was becoming boring. Dinner that night at Eddie Deen's!! Free food, free drinks, live band and armadillo racing....what more does a girl need??? Again, in bed by 10....my friends think I am goodie two shoes....told them no, just can't hang with the big dogs!!
Thursday: same as Wedensday but did get a tiny little workout in (and I do mean tiny) then headed to Hampton's "dance club"! Again, free food and free drinks but no line dancing or armadillos....had a DJ that played some good music but most was not my style...good fun, though....glad I got to see all my friends from GM class in Memphis and pretty much everyone I have ever worked for in the hotel business!
Friday: up at 5am at airport by 6:30...on my way home at 8!
Had a really good time....now have to get back to reality :o)
Thursday, February 18, 2010
Creative Writing
I am taking a creative writing class this semester. It has been fun and challenging. Just thought that I would share a couple of poems that I have written for the class. The first one we had to pick a topic and write about it (I chose faith) and the second we had to describe something with a symbol (I chose a whirlwind to respresent Zach..lol).
1-
A staple of existence I am told,
For without it you can’t live so bold.
If it’s missing life seems bleak,
But to truly have it you must be meek.
An invisible force that fills your heart,
It draws you back out of the dark.
It dreams your dreams and calms your fears,
And sometimes even dries your tears.
Unseen but there…
A feeling that you must share.
Its presence takes over in times of trouble,
Sometimes loudly, sometimes subtle.
But not just sadness, sorrow, and strife,
It brings great joy and new life.
What is this thing your heart holds dear?
The answer must be clear…
Faith
2-
Slow and gentle winds wake from sleep
And suddenly begin to creep
Twisting and turning to find a path
No one can escape his wrath
A force that cannot be reckoned
No matter who may beckon
He clamors on, nothing keeps him at bay
There is no time to get out of his way
But underneath the turmoil calmness lays
Slowly taking the fierceness away
Without warning winds dissipate
And in the rubble that’s left a small child waits
Feel free to critique....I really like to write but don't feel "creative".
1-
A staple of existence I am told,
For without it you can’t live so bold.
If it’s missing life seems bleak,
But to truly have it you must be meek.
An invisible force that fills your heart,
It draws you back out of the dark.
It dreams your dreams and calms your fears,
And sometimes even dries your tears.
Unseen but there…
A feeling that you must share.
Its presence takes over in times of trouble,
Sometimes loudly, sometimes subtle.
But not just sadness, sorrow, and strife,
It brings great joy and new life.
What is this thing your heart holds dear?
The answer must be clear…
Faith
2-
Slow and gentle winds wake from sleep
And suddenly begin to creep
Twisting and turning to find a path
No one can escape his wrath
A force that cannot be reckoned
No matter who may beckon
He clamors on, nothing keeps him at bay
There is no time to get out of his way
But underneath the turmoil calmness lays
Slowly taking the fierceness away
Without warning winds dissipate
And in the rubble that’s left a small child waits
Feel free to critique....I really like to write but don't feel "creative".
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Traveling Take Two
Ok, I may have to rethink my previous thoughts about liking to travel. THis is how my journey has gone so far....
- Flight delayed from GSP to Charlotte on Sunday, flight delayed from Charlotte to Memphis after that...BUT, there is good news....while I was waiting to see if they were going to cancel my flight to Memphis I met a girl who was heading to the same class as me, on the same flight AND our seats were right beside each other....imagine that :0)
- Called US Air Tuesday to change my flight to Thursday and they wanted to charge me $500 and told me to call back Thurs.
- Called back Thursday morning to be told that flights were not being changed because of weather yet...
- Called back Thursday right after lunch to be told that all flights were full because of changes because of the weather....I was not a very happy camper but throwing a fit would hardly have helped
- Friday morning 9:20 flight cancelled, rebooked on 2:18, 2:18 flight cancelled, stuck in Memphis and about a true melt down when hotel told me they were going to charge me $130 per night even though I work at a Hampton Inn...thankfully, the Sales girl I met earlier in the week called me back and said that I was only going to be charged the employee rate which is $29...me and my bank account give a big sigh of relief although I am still fighting tears from being SO homesick
- Saturday finally get out of Memphis only to get to Charlotte and find that my flight to Greenville is cancelled and I can fly standy on 4:40 flight or the one after that if I don't make it on the 4:40 but can be confirmed on 10:30 pm flight...get sent to different gate to board
- Went to chapel service held by airport Chaplin at 2pm...thought it wouldn't hurt for me to do a little praying, especially to keep my attitude in check....
- It is now 5:12, battery on my computer is about to die because some came and abruptley plugged their computer in to the outlet that I was about to use....4:40 flight was delayed until 6:06 and I am #8 on the standby list...I may not get out of Charlotte...Dan has offered to come and get me...we'll see what happens....
Maybe flying is not for me after all, flying in this bad weather has definitely stressed me out and put all sorts of thoughts about crashing in my head, which in turn has resulted in al sorts of prayers to God as to why it would not be a good idea for me to go to Heaven right now.
But, I really do like to fly......
- Flight delayed from GSP to Charlotte on Sunday, flight delayed from Charlotte to Memphis after that...BUT, there is good news....while I was waiting to see if they were going to cancel my flight to Memphis I met a girl who was heading to the same class as me, on the same flight AND our seats were right beside each other....imagine that :0)
- Called US Air Tuesday to change my flight to Thursday and they wanted to charge me $500 and told me to call back Thurs.
- Called back Thursday morning to be told that flights were not being changed because of weather yet...
- Called back Thursday right after lunch to be told that all flights were full because of changes because of the weather....I was not a very happy camper but throwing a fit would hardly have helped
- Friday morning 9:20 flight cancelled, rebooked on 2:18, 2:18 flight cancelled, stuck in Memphis and about a true melt down when hotel told me they were going to charge me $130 per night even though I work at a Hampton Inn...thankfully, the Sales girl I met earlier in the week called me back and said that I was only going to be charged the employee rate which is $29...me and my bank account give a big sigh of relief although I am still fighting tears from being SO homesick
- Saturday finally get out of Memphis only to get to Charlotte and find that my flight to Greenville is cancelled and I can fly standy on 4:40 flight or the one after that if I don't make it on the 4:40 but can be confirmed on 10:30 pm flight...get sent to different gate to board
- Went to chapel service held by airport Chaplin at 2pm...thought it wouldn't hurt for me to do a little praying, especially to keep my attitude in check....
- It is now 5:12, battery on my computer is about to die because some came and abruptley plugged their computer in to the outlet that I was about to use....4:40 flight was delayed until 6:06 and I am #8 on the standby list...I may not get out of Charlotte...Dan has offered to come and get me...we'll see what happens....
Maybe flying is not for me after all, flying in this bad weather has definitely stressed me out and put all sorts of thoughts about crashing in my head, which in turn has resulted in al sorts of prayers to God as to why it would not be a good idea for me to go to Heaven right now.
But, I really do like to fly......
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Traveling
I am very glad that I decided not to drive to Memphis. Today has turned out to be a dreary, rainy day and while I'm not sure that I would rather spend it in the air, I am definitely glad that I am not gasing up the car and heading down the interstate in it.
I really do like traveling and had I made more of the opportunities that I was given earlier in life I might have done more of it. But, I did not, so I take the opprtunities now when I can. I love big cities and airports. I'm not sure if I would have the same feeling if I was roaming about in them all the time, but for now they hold an appealing element that I really don't know how to describe.
But I miss my babies already. It will be a long week without them. I know I will be able to get some things done in peace (like lots of homework), but I will constantly wonder what they are doing and if it is things that they should be doing.
Anyway, it is almost boarding time and my laptop battery is almost dead. Maybe I will get more blogged about my trip this week a little later!
I really do like traveling and had I made more of the opportunities that I was given earlier in life I might have done more of it. But, I did not, so I take the opprtunities now when I can. I love big cities and airports. I'm not sure if I would have the same feeling if I was roaming about in them all the time, but for now they hold an appealing element that I really don't know how to describe.
But I miss my babies already. It will be a long week without them. I know I will be able to get some things done in peace (like lots of homework), but I will constantly wonder what they are doing and if it is things that they should be doing.
Anyway, it is almost boarding time and my laptop battery is almost dead. Maybe I will get more blogged about my trip this week a little later!
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